Winter Blues

"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."
~Albus Dumbledore

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban movie, screenplay by Steven Kloves.

Yes... Yes, I did just quote a fictional character. However, it fits perfectly with where I am at right now. It is the dismal dark called seasonal depression. It has taken a hold and is winning the battle. February is usually the worst for me so I don't imagine it's going to get better. Most likely it'll get worse and all I'll want to do is hibernate. It has sucked out my motivation and determination. I started the year out with a bang! Now, I struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I'm tired of the cold, and the dreary days. I'm tired of the weekly winter precipitation that doesn't accumulate enough so I can get a day off from work. As a result, I'm tired of driving to work in shitty weather just to freeze my ass off in a drafty office. 

I've lost my motivation to work out, and forget tracking points. I've barely looked at my tracker since Christmas. And my husband stole my yoga mat! He put it under the rug in our entryway to keep it from slipping. WTF? ... Apparently, I'm also a bit moody. :P

I'm just.... tired..... Kind of like Gandalf in the Fellowship of the Ring. Visibly tired and wearied by life and the world around him. However, he is reborn with a new energy.  The days are getting longer and that brief moment of sun (when it's out) on my way home is nice. I am eagerly awaiting March and the coming of Spring. I guess I'll have to trudge through it and wait for my new energy.

For now, I'll have to dig deep and find my own light within.