Apparently, blogging is one of them. It's just about sunrise. I love the early morning quiet. It's a shame that I don't like waking up early to enjoy it. Lately, I've been losing sleep over a few things. Therefore, I've been seeing alot more of the wee hours than I'd like.
If you read yesterday's post, you'll know that my eating has spiraled out of control. What I didn't say is that I've gained something like 6 pounds since I stopped working. Well... it wasn't like 6 pounds.... It is exactly 6 pounds... and 15 since my sister in law's wedding 2 years and 2 months ago (almost to the day). I am now 8 pounds from my highest weight ever! Back to where I was when I started Weight Watchers 2 years ago.... That leads me to one of the things that keeps me awake at 5 am. One of the only things I currently don't have under control. My eating and my weight. They go hand in hand so I consider them one thing. Anyway, something needs to change. Tired of laying in bed thinking, I get up determined to make changes. Which leads me to.... Going back to WW... atleast for the 3 months that I subscribed for. It's a necessity.
I know I said I'm doing Intuitive Eating... but when it comes to food, my intuition is all out of whack. I honestly feel like I've forgotten how to eat right. I can't remember what a healthy lunch or snack looks like. I eat maybe one serving of fruit or veg a day which is sooooo not good. Everything in moderation has turned into everything whenever I want it. The most important thing WW ever did for me was teach me how to have a healthier diet. And just like how my grammar gets worse the longer I'm out of school, my eating gets worse the longer I'm not focused on eating right.
I'm formulating a plan... as always. I don't think I ever do anything without a plan. Here's how I see it. WW forces me to make healthy choices and still allows me to eat what I want (to a degree). Incorporate some of what I learned from IE and it could work. WW changed things up a bit since I last did it. They have routines now that you add and track. So, I picked the ones that are more along the lines of Intuitive Eating. Like non distracted eating, taking a sip a water between bites so you'll eat slower, and eat a fruit or veg at every meal and snack, which is along the lines of gentle nutrition.
How this time is different from the others.
1. No frozen dinners. Last time it was my saving grace. Everyday I'd come home from work and pick the Lean Cuisine that would keep me within my points target, and microwave away. Since I stopped working, I've had maybe one or two Lean Cuisines. Honestly, they're nasty. Now that I cook and eat real meat, I can't stomach that processed stuff anymore. Without all the sodium, I won't hold onto all that water weight.
2. No diet drinks. No diet soda or diet hot chocolate...or anything other beverage with the word diet in it. Mostly water and tea.... and the occasional alcoholic beverage. I really only drink alcohol at parties or after a hellish day of work, but since I don't work, it'll mostly be parties.
3. No artificial sweeteners. No Splenda, truvia, sweet n low. It's disgusting and gives me headaches. I used to use it in my coffee, but honestly.... sugar is worth the points since I only add it to coffee.
Don't get confused. These aren't diet rules. They are things that I've decided not to do because it's overly processed crap and it doesn't even taste good. Real food is what I'm after... mostly... I do still eat refined white sugar. That's the hardest thing to cut out along with high fructose corn syrup because I'm a fan of cereal for breakfast and I like a little sugar in my morning coffee.
Lately, I've been focused on what workout I want to do, but that won't matter if I'm not eating right. Diet first.... Exercise later.... this morning.... possibly yoga b/c it's summer and the socks I haven't been wearing are all dirty. :P
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Monday, June 17, 2013
I've been MIA....
Shannon at Tatlock's Truth made a good point when she said "it seems as though silence on a blog, means there has been a falling off of the plan." Kind of true here... Though I stated a plan, I never really got started on it. After my last post, I went to visit family for the weekend, then was sick for an entire week, and finally went to visit family again while my husband was out of town for a conference.
Honestly, I'm a pretty scatter shot person. Always jumping from one thing to the next. I go through phases. Sometimes I'm extroverted and putting myself out there and sometimes I'm a little more introverted Currently, I'm doing a little more inner reflection. If you've been reading me a while you'll know that I don't share all the nitty gritty details of my life here. Some things are meant to be kept to yourself or only shared with close friends and relatives.
Recently, I've started refocusing on my spirituality. It seems when I focus on that, everything else just seems to fall into place and I have more clarity on what I want out of life. If you want to know more about my spirituality, just check out the label on the right. I'm pretty much in the same place as I was then since I haven't really been making the time for it. Ultimately, it mostly involves meditating, journaling and connecting with the elements since I'm on a nature-based path. As a result, I've been doing more writing on paper than on the internet.
If I recall properly, I promised an Intuitive Eating (IE) update in my last post. So.... here it goes.... IE spiraled out of control and I started eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. It was like everything I learned gradually reverted back to my old habits. The other day I actually said to myself "if I only ate when I was hungry, I would never get to have any of the good stuff." That really made me think about what the heck I've been doing. I want the good stuff, which is mostly chocolate. However, it isn't something you should have after every meal. Yes, that is where I went.
Chocolate in the morning
Chocolate in the evening
Chocolate at suppertime (ok not really supper time)
I exaggerate a little. It was chocolate after lunch and dinner. No or... it was both almost everyday. It might be time to lock up the junk. Unlike other husbands, mine doesn't think that he shouldn't be allowed to have chips and cookies in the house when I'm trying to eat healthy. He's in the "always been skinny. always eats what he wants. never gains a pound" club, and with that comes a lack of understanding. He found the lock from high school and remembers the combination. He did agree to lock the junk up so I can't get to it. Sometimes you need to go to crazy extremes to break bad habits and my eating habits are bad habits. Once I feel like I've gotten everything under control again, we'll gradually put the stuff back in the pantry a little at a time. I'll let you know if we actually go through with that little plan. Though I am slowly getting back to eating when I'm hungry and keeping myself busy when I'm not so I don't revert to boredom eating. So, we might not need it if I can be a big girl and control myself a little.
Not sure when I'll post again. Honestly, the ideas haven't been flowing lately so I'm at a loss as what to write about. Oh! Maybe I'll post about my very big loft clearing project, and by clearing, I mean throw all of the stuff in that room out. I already have a battle wound. :P
Honestly, I'm a pretty scatter shot person. Always jumping from one thing to the next. I go through phases. Sometimes I'm extroverted and putting myself out there and sometimes I'm a little more introverted Currently, I'm doing a little more inner reflection. If you've been reading me a while you'll know that I don't share all the nitty gritty details of my life here. Some things are meant to be kept to yourself or only shared with close friends and relatives.
Recently, I've started refocusing on my spirituality. It seems when I focus on that, everything else just seems to fall into place and I have more clarity on what I want out of life. If you want to know more about my spirituality, just check out the label on the right. I'm pretty much in the same place as I was then since I haven't really been making the time for it. Ultimately, it mostly involves meditating, journaling and connecting with the elements since I'm on a nature-based path. As a result, I've been doing more writing on paper than on the internet.
If I recall properly, I promised an Intuitive Eating (IE) update in my last post. So.... here it goes.... IE spiraled out of control and I started eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. It was like everything I learned gradually reverted back to my old habits. The other day I actually said to myself "if I only ate when I was hungry, I would never get to have any of the good stuff." That really made me think about what the heck I've been doing. I want the good stuff, which is mostly chocolate. However, it isn't something you should have after every meal. Yes, that is where I went.
Chocolate in the morning
Chocolate in the evening
Chocolate at suppertime (ok not really supper time)
I exaggerate a little. It was chocolate after lunch and dinner. No or... it was both almost everyday. It might be time to lock up the junk. Unlike other husbands, mine doesn't think that he shouldn't be allowed to have chips and cookies in the house when I'm trying to eat healthy. He's in the "always been skinny. always eats what he wants. never gains a pound" club, and with that comes a lack of understanding. He found the lock from high school and remembers the combination. He did agree to lock the junk up so I can't get to it. Sometimes you need to go to crazy extremes to break bad habits and my eating habits are bad habits. Once I feel like I've gotten everything under control again, we'll gradually put the stuff back in the pantry a little at a time. I'll let you know if we actually go through with that little plan. Though I am slowly getting back to eating when I'm hungry and keeping myself busy when I'm not so I don't revert to boredom eating. So, we might not need it if I can be a big girl and control myself a little.
Not sure when I'll post again. Honestly, the ideas haven't been flowing lately so I'm at a loss as what to write about. Oh! Maybe I'll post about my very big loft clearing project, and by clearing, I mean throw all of the stuff in that room out. I already have a battle wound. :P
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